Unamused Ramblings

This started as a Facebook post but here we go: Found my way behind my sewing machine today. It’s the first time in almost a month that I’ve felt ready to sew.  Due to surgery on my “sewing knee”, I had to use my left foot for the pedals and while not impossible, I found it quite difficult to control the speed - sewing with my right foot is like breathing. My body just knows how to do it. Sewing with my left foot is far more intentional and I have to be extremely focused not just on the needle part, but the pedal part too.  I’m hoping I get cleared to get out of immobilization and can allow my knee to bend while in a rested/seated position (while still wearing my brace) so I can work on some of this clothing I’ve cut. Serging just isn’t quite an option yet, hopefully soon though.  Until then, you’ll find me slow and focused, behind my standard.  We celebrate the small wins

 Today was my first physical therapy appointment. I told myself not to cry, but I cried. I’m very emotional when it comes to me life and having to repeat how I ended up here in the first place.  My therapist, T, is very kind and understanding. He laughed when I shared an anecdote from my therapy days as a stubborn high schooler. I am thankful for a good care team- I’m going to need it.  My exercises were simple, but exhausting. I came home and fell asleep within a couple hours. My knee is also hurting a lot.  My 4yo came with me to therapy today and offered to hold my hand while I was doing some of the exercises. He can be so sweet when he wants to be.  This is a short update today, mostly because I’m very very tired. I’ll try to write more tomorrow